So I'm stationed in a completely different country. I've been taken out of my safety bubble, and put in a situation that's either pass or fail. But, we all know that I won't take failure as an option. If at first you don't succeed...get up off your ass and keep fighting the good fight.
It's funny, because the more I think about it, the more I realize that life doesn't care how you do. If you utterly fail at life, it still continues. There's no pause button. There's no rewind. Even though there are things that I'm not proud of, I can't take them back, so I have to take the blows life's given me, and throw some back of my own. I'm not looking for the cure-all, but I'm not trying to just skate on by, either.
As a Marine, I'm supposed to be ready to deploy anywhere in the world within 48-72 hours. Such is the case, even if I am in a shitty unit. There's nothing that I can really do about it, especially being a Junior Marine. But, I can always try to take a shitty situation and make it less shitty. As the posters go: "I Didn't Promise You A Rose Garden". Fuck roses, anyways...they're overrated.
"Remember Where You Came From": what a good ghetto proverb to live by. Remember the struggles my mom had to go through raising me as a single parent. Remember where I was and how far I've come. Now isn't the time for a relapse. Sure, certain things that people say to me bring me down, and they always will. But, I can always use their derogatory statements as motivation. It's easy to turn tears into sweat, it's just a matter of how you look at things. The more that you sweat in war, means you'll bleed less in war. Learn it, love it, and live by it. If "love is a battlefield", then so is life. Thank God I'm on the winning team.
I think it's time that I stop taking this whole situation as it as and being go-with-the-flow, and start playing some of those famous "fuck-fuck" games. I feel like I'm surrounded by shitbags, but it doesn't mean I have to be just like them. They chose their path, I just have to blaze my own. I just have to take that path less traveled. So that way, my higher-ups can see that I can do their job better, and I can come out top dog. I'll run the dog pound if I have things my way.